Friends?

I have been through a lot, this much is true. I have experienced some hardships this year, and I am exhausted by the pain they caused, frustrated by the lessons I've been forced to learn against my will, and annoyed mostly by the reactions that my supposed friends have had to my hurt, as if I am not allowed to feel hurt about something that legitimately hurt me. I have learned more than anything about who are my true friends, who loves me for me, who cares about my well-being and who wants me to succeed in life, in whichever path I happen to end up on in the dim, misty forest where I am wandering.

My wandering isn't forever though, friends, and my true friends know this. I know there is a plan laid out, a path God has in store for me, and I know that God has given me certain dreams. I want them to come true; I really do. I am looking forward to seeing where He leads me, and I am not hopeless, though a little wounded. I don't want to talk about the past anymore; much of me wants to forget that it exists at all. At any rate, I can't forget because there are lessons to be learned. I am not wallowing in self-pity, I am merely passing through a grieving process in order to learn what I need to learn.

I just prefer God teaching me His intended lessons...I don't need people messing with my wounds just for the fun of it. God knows what He's doing and doesn't need you to be cruel to me. I already get it...and I would never have treated any of you with any disrespect about your emotions. God gave us emotions...He has both blessed us and cursed us with the ability to feel, so who are we to assume that feeling is wrong? I don't think the personal emotions deserve public criticism, even debilitating emotions. Sadness often manifests itself in the form of visible sadness, and friendly kindness is appreciated, but this sadness, too, shall pass. No need to force it...friends...